5 weeks

Today the baby is the size of an apple seed!
It is also the day the babies heart begins to beat and pump blood. Hurray! This is the babies 1st organ to function!
Beta #4 was super~ 2425 :)

BFP :)

Its been awhile since I updated so here goes...
Last friday 10/23/09 was my 1st beta (blood work to see if pg)when I got home I decided to POAS or 2 just to give me an idea for when fav nurse (Liza) called. It was *POSITIVE* so I called my DH to give him the great news-he put me to voice mail. What??? As I sat on the bathroom floor crying and shaking and looking at these fantastic tests he decided to call me back. I told him and he said thats good but wait for Liza to call with the news just in case. Okay Debby downer... An hour later she called and told me the news-again more sitting on the floor cying, shaking etc. She told me to come back on Monday for another one. We called our parents and grandparents and told them the news!! My side of rhe family was crying, Dh's was happy!? LOL! This week has been a crazy week I'm so nervous after my betas that I just look at my phone and pray the next call I get will be okay.
Beta results :
10/23/09- 134
10/26/09- 365
10/28/09- 770
and now I'm waiting for the results of my 4th beta.... I pray its good.
If everything is good my 1st u/s is next fri 11/6~ I'll be 6 weeks PREGNANT.
My due date is Thurs 7.01.2010
Stick babies stick <3

Hello in there...

So I'm talking to my belly like a crazy person but so far so good! This has been a crazy weekend. Super emotional but its a good thing!
I found out that I need 3 yes 3 betas ahhhh. I knew of 2 not 3. I guess its okay, but it makes me worry about the numbers. The numbers are from the HCG hormone and tells the docs whats going on. After the 1st beta they want your numbers to double and same for 3rd. I pray everything is okay in there.
Stick babies stick <3 I love you so much!

Please god

So here we are waiting. I havent POAS but want to like theres no tomm. I dont think I've ever been this scared in my life. I just want/need to know whats going on in there- my beta cant some soon enough. Today has been a bit of a crying day, like I said soo scared.
Please God- I'll be a good catholic and the babies will be too!

Someone stole my boobies

Buddy got his halloween costume today-fireman Buddy!!



Okay so someone has stolen my bbs. I have someone elses I'm convinced. These things are BIG and looking odd-I know they can be sore from the crinone but looking different I think is another story. Warning TMI~ There are pimple like things on m nips-so I googled and it came back that its an early sign of pregnancy (something for nursing)and they are veiny but I'm trying not to read into it. I really really want to test but am being good. Today the babies wanted a donut because they saw it on tv with halloween sprinkles...well 5 mins later I kinda threw up in my mouth (maybe indigestion) but still weird.
I have decided that I dislike crinone-I'm pretty sure its messing up my belly if you know what I mean. But if I have to stay on it forever to keep these babies I will.
I'm off to acupuncture its only $75 this time (follow up).

My 2 cute embabies!

Update- Still feeling woozy,but havent gotten sick.No weight gain/no spotting etc.
I havent tested and am going to try REALLY hard not too!

Hello Friday

So it's Friday and I have come to the conclusion that my babies are sticking around. People who do drugs/drink and are in their 40s get pregnant and carry healthy babies so I will too! This is going to work! I finally today someone else when my beta is- my gram! She is my #1 supporter!

Gotta have faith

So here we are 5 days post transfer and I have no clue whats going on in there. I keep talking to them but know at this point they have made up their minds if they are 'sticking' around or not- they should have 'they did' implant by now. My mind is all over the place, I'm positive most of the time but scared shitless the rest.
As far as symptoms- no weight gain,bb's are sore/tender and I'm nauseous esp in the car and a few times threw out the day. I'm trying not to pay attention beacuse I know these are also side effects for the crinone-suppository.
However I long to throw up like theres no tommorrow!LOL!
I have been reading online that 4cell and 6cell babies stick and turn out healthy so thats making me happy. I also read that I can probably take a test tomm to see if the trigger is out of my system and then to take another test next week to see if its real... soo confusing. I dont plan on testing until after the beta.

One question keeps running threw my mind- if they knew we were going to have a bunch of eggies and we had male issues in the past then why didnt they do ICSI to start with instead of emergency ICSI? It makes no sence to me-then again I'm not a doctor. Then we would have given our 15 other babies more of a fighting chance.Annoyed over that. But I hope we wont need to sit down and have this talk with our doc oneday- I hope these 2 babies stick so we wont go threw this again.

I havent told my hubby but I think we should give one of the babies the middle name Faith- its only fitting :)

Best email

Hi,
 How did you make out this afternoon ?  I went to church and prayed at every statue in the church . I think we have  a good supply of prayers at this time.
Love, Gram

Stick little babies STICK!

What a day...this morning I called the doctors office to get my fav nurses point of view on my babies-well she didnt seem very excited. I'm praying it was because it was early in the morning/after long weekend etc. Anywho she told me that none of the eggies made it to freezing, probably one of the saddest things I have ever heard.
(I hope they know how much I love them and will miss them) Told me to think positive and that I do still have 2 in my belly.
Got off the phone and cryed my eyes out for about 5 hours on and off.

Made an appt at the Domar center for acupuncure $95 for 90mins to help these babies stick. I told them we were going to acupuncture for them and it wouldnt hurt them...I'm nuts I know it.

Called my gram who is the best person and told her to go to church and pray...she told me she prays for me and the babies everyday-I told her pray extra please! She had a good point,after my retrieval 2 eggies were fertilized on their own and now 2 eggies are in my belly-she thinks they are smart and are fighters. I like the way she thinks!

I'm going for another round of acupuncture next Tues and hope it helps.
Stick babies stick-you can have candy when you come out,and a late bedtime :)*Muah*

Moving around

I finally slept last night! Well kinda- I decided to sleep on my side ( which I love)! I was reading that pregnant people should sleep on their left side so I figured why not! Ha! I only woke up 1 time unlike the past 4 nights! I called a friend and went to breakfast and got lots of proteins, eggs,cheese and bacon.I came home and went back to resting however I have been moving more than the past days. I feel good, I'll randomly get a pinch in my belly but it only lasts 1second. I haven't gained any weight so that's exciting! I'm feeling like I might throw up which excites me but it's prob cause I missed lunch! I've googled grade b and c embryos and it seems ok but of course I'll call my nurse tomm to see what she thinks. I hope she thinks they are okay.
I've been looking at the babies picture since yesterday and it's on the fridge! I've been talking to the babies and telling them to stick,stick,stick and that I love them very much! My hubby even said bye to them this morning before he went to work! I'm off tomm and back to work wed so it's a short week. I'm going to try very hard not to lift the 2yr old! All for now!

Found online, too funny

14 Things to Do when 14 Days Seem Like Forever, by Lynn Steen

Please note that this is a humourous article and is not intended as advice.
As any woman who is trying to get pregnant can tell you, the two weeks from ovulation to the due date for your next period are pure torture. You promise yourself you’ll just wait it out, distract yourself with other activities and you won’t even THINK about taking a pregnancy test until you’re at least a day overdue. Then something happens – your breasts start hurting in a slightly different way than they did before, you get slightly nauseous, you have some spotting, or nothing happens, but you find yourself waking up wishing you could go to sleep again so that it would be another day closer to knowing. You can’t think, you can’t sleep, you can’t work, and you start taking HPT’s days before they are even possibly meaningful. You are deep in the abyss of THE TWO-WEEK-WAIT!

In my opinion, it’s no use advising women to stop obsessing, it’s impossible. Instead, I give you a list of more productive ways to obsess. Please note, however, that there is a limit that each woman must define for herself, between indulging in some baby daydreaming and going overboard. I’ve included some examples below:

1. Take a walk around your neighborhood and figure out what will be the best route for strolls with the baby. Find areas with nice pavements and easy curbs. Go ahead and daydream. But do NOT buy a stroller for the dog.

2. Clean out your wardrobe to make room for the maternity stuff you’ll be buying soon. Try on anything you haven’t worn for six months. Yes, if you wish, you may put a pillow in your undies to see what will work as maternity wear. But taking a picture of yourself like that is going too far.

3. Start a journal. Write down everything you’re feeling. It will be a great opening chapter for your child’s baby book. If you can’t put your feelings into words, draw something; try to create a symbol that expresses the frustration you’re feeling. Don’t get that symbol tattooed on your ankle.

4. Plant a hope garden. Or a hope rosebush. Or a hope citrus tree. You want to grow something inside of you, well start by growing something outside of you. Nurture it. Feed it. Give it water. Talk to it. But do not send out birth announcements.

5. Get better at photography. Really learn how to work all the buttons and settings on your camera. Experiment! If you have a digital camera, get all the downloading and editing stuff worked out. You will be well prepared once you have a baby, and will be able to get some great shots and get them emailed to your family before the child’s graduation. Do not take photos of your cervical mucous, even if Toni Weschler begs you.

6. Make an appeal to the committee meeting going on inside you. Sperm, egg, uterus, corpus luteum, progesterone – they are in there either making a baby or not. Treat them like any other unruly committee you’ve ever addressed. Yes that’s right, go ahead and talk to them. Put your hands on your stomach and tell them how much you respect them. Make your best argument in favor of a baby, and then let them decide. It’s out of your hands. Addressing the committee within earshot of normal people is not recommended.

7. Paint your toenails. Imagine how difficult this will be when you are pregnant. Go shopping for the perfect pink and blue nail polish in preparation for a celebration polish. Alternating colors on the day you find out you’re pregnant, or a single color for the day you find out the baby’s sex. Don’t be tempted to paint a cycle day countdown on your big toes.

8. Make a cup of herbal tea. It is a nice ritual: boiling the water, adding the tea leaves, pouring into a nice china cup, adding some milk or sugar, sipping peacefully. Ahhhh. There’s nothing that a nice cup of tea won’t help. Yeah right. Well it does kill a little bit of time.

9. Swim laps. Think about the sperm and how they need to swim to your egg. Imagine that you are a sperm, the end of the pool is the egg, then GO, GO, GO! Don’t wear a tail or anything. Just imagine it quietly.

10. Make lists. List all the people you will tell when you get pregnant, and in what order. List all the little jobs you need to get done instead of obsessing about this 2WW! List all the healthy activities you intend to do this week. List all the girl and boy names you like. Lists are helpful for all sorts of things, most of all for passing time rather than actually doing something.

11. Create a fertility dance. Choose whatever music speaks to your soul and make up a dance routine as a prayer to the universe for the growth of an embryo. Move your hips, rotate your belly, let your arms flow – but close the curtains.

12. Prepare a folic acid feast. Cream of broccoli soup as an entree, followed by spinach lasagna, enriched whole grain garlic bread and frozen orange juice sorbet for dessert. Dedicate the meal to your baby-to-be. Just don’t set a highchair at the table in his or her honor.

13. Delegate the burden of the two-week wait. Clearly someone has to worry constantly during this time, but does it have to be you? Divide the days up among your best friends and closest family. On their assigned day they are required to think, wonder, and worry all day about whether you are pregnant or not. At the end of the day they have to call or send you email describing how agonizing it was. Also they have to report to you if they had any “symptoms,” such as sore breasts, excessive urination, nausea, bleeding, fatigue… you will be surprised how many people, male and female, have early pregnancy symptoms if they just look for them.

14. Write a list of 14 things to do during the Two-Week Wait and post it to the internet. For me, this killed nearly 3 hours. Now what? I’ve still got 9 days to go? Aaaarrgrhhhh.
 

Transfer day 10/11/09

So today was the big transfer! I was ok, but afraid I was going to pee on people! But there was no peeing on people! I got to the center and was told to start drinking,i brought my 24oz bottle of water/ finnished it and told the nurse I already had to pee...she told me to drink more. So I was a good patient and listened. When I went for the u/s to comfirm my full bladder they said it was over filled;thanks nurse! I had to empty a little then was ready to go. About 5 people checked my name/dob before we could start. The eggies we were transfering were a 6 cell,grade C fair and a 4 cell,grade B fair. I really wanted straight A's but I'm trying not to focus on the grades. They said these were 2 good ones. The transfer was easy- had valum 5mg, and it was like A pap smear, took about 5 mins. Then they set a timer for 10 mins before I could get up. The whole 10 mins I was telling the babies ( yes now I'm called them babies) to stick, stick, stick! We got a picture of our little babies-I'll upload it later. I have the date for my preg test and I don't think my fav nurse is working:( it's a Friday. I'm not saying the date because I dont want friends to know for awhile.

Side note- my knee is still killing me;( however I'll deal with a crappy knee if that means a BFP/great beta numbers!

Alot of eggies!!

I'm feeling good, still no weight gain or huge belly. I'm still resting, drinking plenty of fluids etc. A nurse called today to tell me what time to come in tomm for my transfer-arrive @9:20, procedure @10:20am. I now have 16 fertlized eggies! Yahoo, I hope they are good grades and will make a freeze. I'm super excited!

My knee is still killing, ice packs, heating pads aren't working... Boo. I'm going to mention it tomm and see if it's common after the retrieval?!

Almost there...

Last night I couldn't sleep, it wasn't because of pain it was because I was afraid to roll onto mysides/belly and upset my belly. I normally sleep on my side- I'll go back to normal after I'm out of the over stimulating range! Ha! So I went to the recliner but couldn't fall asleep...it was 3am. My knee is killing me, I talk my nurse and she thought the same thing I did- it was from the stir ups. Right now I have ice on it. Who would have thought my knee would be bothering more than my belly! I hope it goes away super soon, I want to cry :(

Anywho, my doc called today and threw me for a loop. I assumed she was calling to see if I was over stimulating but nope. She was calling to tell me that 17 out of the 32 eggs were mature and 2 fertilized naturaly. She was calling to advise us to do an icsi procedure on the 15 other eggies. Icsi is when the inject a single sperm into the egg threw a needle/unlike the normal way of putting the 2 in the same dish and letting the swimmers do their job! It's an additional $2500.00 for this procedure but it should work with a few so we can freeze some.

As far as symptoms- I feel good. A little bloated but I've been like this for a week or so, No spotting, a cramp here and there and I'm the same weight! The weight is a big sign of over stimming. So that's good. I have been drinking gatorade and water like crazy and peeing alot too. I don't think my pee has never been this clear ever! Haha sorry for tmi! So I'll prob sleep or try to sleep on the recliner again just so I don't roll! Lol!
Tomm afternoon we will get the call on how many eggies are fertilized and when we can come in on Sunday. Until then...

I'm praying I don't over stimulate and the more eggies get fertilized and my knee feels better!

I love my grandparents

So today while I was resting in bed my hubby asked if I was expecting a package- I said no but I'll take one! He brought in a small box and I opened a jewelry box, inside was a pendant of St.Gerard on a chain! He's the saint of fertilty/child, protecting mothers! On the order slip it said love gram & papa! How lucky am I? They are soo sweet!

On another note I'm feeling good, a little crampy but not awful. The only thing thar is killing me is my knee? I have no clue why, the only thing I can think of is during the procedure they had to put me in the stir-ups and maybe my knee went the wrong way? I keep weighing myself and so far so good- fingers crossed! I have had 1 gallon of gatoraid and now I'm onto water. I had steak and fries for dinner- so there's some protein. My hubby has been great,I have been texting him all day from the bedroom with things j need! What will I do tomm when he returns to work? Hmm

Almost preggers

Today was my retrieval! My instructions were to not eat or drink past midnight on Wednesday. Last night I had dreams about water all night! Hehe- I've never wanted water more in my life then when I was told I couldn't have any! I couldn't sleep at all last night. The plan was to arrive at the center @ 9:30am today (thurs), we got there at 8:20am because we were nervous about traffic! So we waited,and waited. My dh was sopost to give his sample at 9:30 but they were backed up! At 9:30ish I was brought into the back room- a place where you go before and after procedures. I got an iv and talked with nurses/doctors etc. My time was set for 10:30- which is 36 hours from my tues night trigger. At 10:25 they still hadn't taken my hubby in and I was freaking out- of course! But the nurses told me not to worry and he would het it down in time. Sooo at 10:30 I was walked into the bathroom to pee (tmi) then I said bye to my hubby and walked into the procedure room. I had to verify my name, dob etc. When I was done the guy putting me to sleep told me he already put the drug into my iv. Not even 2 seconds later I told them I felt weird and needed to lay down. Next thing I knew I was back in the recovery room(1st room) and my hubby was sitting next to me. I had cramping on a scale of 1-10 I was about a 4. They gave me an anti inflamatory in my iv which seemed to help. About 20 mins later they gave me extra strenght Tylenol, it did the trick. About 20 mins later they made me pee and I was told I could leave. I went home with ginerale and saltines, told me to drink plenty of gaterade and water and eat lots of protein and take it easy. The ride home I felt nausus but didn't get sick. Came home and dh made me eggs and pb toast but I just feel awful! I'm sticking to satines and have already had 64 oz of gaterade! Watching movies from the library and trying to relax. I'm praying I don't over stimulate- they took out 32, yes 32 eggies! I don't know yet the quality, but I'm praying they are some good eggies!

Ohh ya some slight/light spotting

Almost there

Lets see where should I start: I've been in and out of the doctors office 5 out of the last 7 days for blood work and u/s but thats all changing! HEHE. Yesterday I had 18 measurable follicles-the largest being 16.5 and my estrogen was 1947 up from sundays 1674. I got the call yesterday that today (Tuesday) might be the night to trigger and we would know more after my appt in the morning. At my appt there were 27 measurable follicles! The largest was 19 and I had a few 18s and 16 etc. When I left I was pretty sure the trigger would be tonight. My nurse called and said yes! My estrogen is 2769 and I'm ready to go. So the plan is trigger @ 10:30pm, nothing Wed and take the eggies out Thurs @ 9:30am! Yahoo after tonight I'm done with shots! So if everything goes according to plan they will put them back in on Sunday. Pray I dont overstimulate,if I do then I need to freeze the eggs and wait until my body calms down. I think I'll visit church... I'm putting myself on kinda bed/couch rest until wednesday when I return to work. Fingers crossed!!!

its in the air...

So last week I found out that 2 more people I know are preggers, So I'm convinced pregnancy is in the air; and I'll be the next one! Those keeping track thats 6 people in the month of September who told me they were pregnant.
My meds are going well, I have some bruises on my belly but I guess its not too bad,and I've noticed some little twiches around the ovaries but I can deal. My fav nurse said I'm doing great and currently a text book IVF case. That makes me super happy.
Update on u/s and blood work:
9/30 4 days of gonal f and many tiny follicles growing and my estrogen is 717-stay on same dose of meds
10/2 6 days of gonal f and 6 follicles growing and measuring around 10.5 and estrogen is 900-stay on same dose of meds. After this appt I was nervous because I thought more would be going on but my fav nurse called and told me everything is on track and slow and steady wins the race.
10/4 8 days of gonal f and 12 follicles growing-measuring from 11-15, I have no clue what my estrogen is ( a different doc called and I forgot to ask).Stay on same dose of meds.

The game plan is to back tomm 10/5 for u/s and blood and just incase I made another appt for Tues. I think I'm going to be in there all week. I told my boss today and shes 100% supportive of me coming late or having to miss some days. I think the retrieval will be this week...maybe Thurs or Friday ( that would be 12/13 days of gonal f)??hmm I guess we'll see.

On a side note- I noticed that I only like talking to one nurse aka fav nurse and when someone else calls me I pretty much dont pay attention to what they are saying and ask for my nurse. I feel bad for being a bitch to these people but the one I like has been with me since the start of everything and I really trust her. I pray she is around when the results of my pregnancy test come in :)